Wednesday, February 25, 2015


Several readers have asked questions about Carol in their comments or emails sent to me.  Carol is my youngest sister and is in her early fifties.  She is eight years younger than me and was always very much a free spirit.  As the youngest of five children, she also received the least amount of parental supervision of any of us and had the least expectations put on her.  Due to our age difference, we were not very close growing up.  After all, I was off to the university before Carol was in Junior High School.  However, after Barry and I moved back to the midwest a bit ago, she and I have become very close.  She is the only family member I have in this area at this time and she went through a major tragedy in her life shortly before we moved here.  Her husband of almost twenty five years tragically died of cancer.  It has been very good to be living so close to her at this time and very special that we have become so close at this stage of our lives.


Monday, February 23, 2015

Debriefing with Carol and Barry

After our last role playing session, Carol, Barry, and I returned to the living room, lit a fire in the fire place and had a glass of wine while we took time to discuss our time together in Barry's office.  I knew by the broad smile on Barry's face that he had thoroughly enjoyed the entire scene.  He spoke first and shared that he loved the way Carol and I worked together and that his fantasy was wonderfully fulfilled.  When I probed him about whether he experienced embarrassment or humiliation, he shared that he was definitely embarrassed much of the time.  However, he never felt humiliated or degraded in any way.

Carol also acknowledged that she thoroughly enjoyed herself.  She was amazed at the relationship that Barry and I have with respect to experimenting with our kinky fantasies and she was impressed with how at ease Barry was with her present.  She also shared that she would be very interested in learning more about our activities if and when we feel comfortable sharing more.  She explained that she had always wished that she and her husband could have experienced a relationship like this.

Carol also commented that she was quite amazed at the fact that Barry maintained an erection throughout most of the spanking he received prior to having an orgasm.  She also was amazed that Barry still seemed to somewhat enjoy the spanking even after his orgasm.

From my perspective, I shared that I didn't think the evening could have gone any better.  I loved working with Carol and I shared my appreciation with her for following my ground rules and not over stepping any boundaries.  I also felt she picked up the fine nuances of spanking at an appropriate level of severity very quickly (and Barry agreed).

In the end, we were all in agreement that it was a fun role play and that we would all be comfortable doing something similar again in the future.

After Carol left, Barry and I retired to the bedroom where he very quickly demonstrated his devotion and appreciation to me for the entire evening.  I have never seen him quite so anxious to get his head between my legs and such enthusiasm for pleasing me.  It was a good night for both of us :-).


Friday, February 20, 2015

Extension of First Role Play - "Corporate" Discipline

Our extended role play using our "Corporate" Discipline scenario took place Tuesday night.  I apologize for taking so long to create a post describing what happened.  Part of the delay was due to the fact that I decided that Barry needed to become more involved in this blog.  When I asked how he thought he would like to be involved, he suggested that he could add photos to my posts, and he has done so with this one.  I actually think that he quite enjoyed doing this.

I didn't tell Barry when it was going to happen until we sat down for lunch that day.  I wanted the timing to be somewhat of a surprise.  I announced to him that Carol was coming over for dinner.  He immediately perked up and said, "And ...?"  I then shared with him that after dinner we would continue our role play, with Carol playing the role of his previous secretary.  It quickly became obvious that he was pleased and very excited.

During the afternoon I laid out his best suit again and suggested that he should wear it.  I knew he would.  I also told him that he could choose what he would like to wear under it.  Knowing that he no longer owns any male underwear, I knew it would be panties, but I wanted him to have the freedom to decide how far to go (or not go) with respect to what type and whether or not to wear anything else.

Carol arrived around 5 PM and we enjoyed a light dinner together.  We were each dressed for the role play and it was clear that Barry and Carol were both anticipating what was to come.  I knew that Barry couldn't wait and that Carol would have loved to start asking him questions.  However, they each restrained themselves.  The level of anticipation was high, which was what I had hoped for.

When the kitchen was almost cleaned up, I suggested to Barry that he move into his office and prepare to be leaving for home at the end of the work day.  A short time later, I walked into his office and announced to him that I hoped he didn't mind staying a bit late tonight so that we could continue his discipline.  He acted appropriately unhappy and tried to weasel out of staying late, claiming that he and his wife had plans for the evening.  I immediately called him up short on that, explaining that his wife had joined me for lunch the previous day and that she knew about my plans for tonight.  I also shared with him that she and I had enjoyed each other very much, and that she now knew all about what he had been doing at work and supported how I was handling things.  I then asked him to look in the left hand pocket of his suit coat and give me whatever he found in it.  He reached in and pulled out a small white envelope, which he handed to me.  "Lovely", I said.  "She promised to send me this little gift when we talked yesterday".  I then opened the envelope and showed him its contents.  It was the spare key to the lock on his chastity device! "She and decided that we should each hold a key to your cage", I declared.  "Isn't that convenient for our meeting tonight? "

I could tell that this caught Barry by surprise.  And, I knew he would also be surprised by  what Carol and I had planned for him.  About that time there was a knock on the office door.  I suggested to Barry that he should see who is there.  When he opened the door, he acted appropriately surprised to see Carol.  He started to tell her she is no longer welcome in the building since she resigned.  However, I intervened and explained to Barry that I had invited Carol to join us for his disciplinary session tonight.  "After all", I said, "I think she has earned the right to be part of your discipline and it is appropriate that she achieve a little revenge for what you put her through."  Carol quickly agreed and walked into the office with an air of authority.

Carol and I each sat in a chair at a table in Barry's office and I directed
Barry to come stand in front of us.  I then ordered him to remove his coat, tie, shirt, and trousers.  After some feeble attempts to protest, he began to slowly comply.  I eventually became impatient with his progress and decided to add to his embarrassment by removing his pants for him.  Out of the corner of my eye,  I could see Carol's amusement at what was happening.  She was taking it all in.  When I dropped his trousers, Carol was surprised to see him dressed in garter belt, stockings, and panties; and even more surprised when she realized to see the outline of the chastity cage through his panties.  I had not shared that detail about our relationship with her.

"Doesn't he look darling in his female underthings?", I asked her.  "And, don't you just love the fact that he is locked up?", I added as I stood up and grabbed his crotch.  "Why don't you tell Carol and me why your wife has you locked up Barry?".  Barry began to stammer a bit and finally said something about her liking to control his orgasms.  At that point I chimed in and said "Don't you mean that she wants to control your addiction to masturbation?".  I then explained to Barry and Carol that I had lunch with his wife the previous, during which she shared with me how much Barry likes to masturbate and to wear feminine undergarments.  Barry immediately became embarrassed and began to blush.  "She has also provided me with the key to Barry's device", I added.  "Come over to me Barry and let's make sure this key works.  I then unlocked his device and slowly removed it.  As I did so, Barry immediately began to get hard as I handled his genitals.  "Why don't you go over and show Carol how nicely shaved you are Barry".   Sheepishly, he did so and Carol admired how clean and smooth he looked as she rubbed his bottom.  I was glad to see that she remembered the rule that she is not to touch his genitals.

In response, I commented "I learned quite a lot from Barry's wife yesterday."  I then explained to Carol that Barry's wife requires him to keep himself shaved from waist to upper thighs and that he does not own any traditional men's underwear.  All he owns are panties.  I also explained that Barry has a serious panty and spanking fetish.  He not only loves to administer spankings to women (as Carol and I already knew), but his wife shared with me that Barry loves to be spanked! .

I then decided to put my plans for this session into action.  I began by makingBarry stand in front of us.  I then began to lightly tease his penis.  He was so excited that it didn't take much to have him squirming in front of us. Carol was quite intrigued by what I did and added verbal comments to tease Barry as well.  It would have been easy to bring Barry to an orgasm, but that was clearly not going to happen.  Instead, I brought him to the edge of a climax several times and then left him hanging.

What happened next was a fulfillment of Barry's long desired fantasy ... being spanked over the laps of two women at the same time.  This would be the first of two sessions over both of our laps.  I am right handed and Carol is left.  So, we positioned ourselves in two chairs facing each other so that we could turn Barry over our laps and each spank with our dominant hands.  For this initial spanking, we each used our bare hands over his bare bottom.  We also took time to gently massage his cheeks as we warmed them up.  I also made sure that I took the opportunity to tease his testicles from time to time.  Since his penis was lying on my right thigh, I could easily tell that he was extremely aroused.  When we let him stand up, I couldn't resist teasing him about his erection and scolding him for allowing it to make a mess on my skirt from his precum.

We then took our time in making Barry assume different positions bending over the desk or kneeling on it as we spanked him with different implements.  It became a bit of a training session for me to help Carol learn how to spank at different levels of intensity that would keep him aroused, but keep adding redness to his cheeks.  Carol was also quite intrigued by how hard Barry stayed during most of the spankings.  At one point she called him a little spanking slut.  While Barry was kneeling on the desk for one of his spankings, I also brought out his collection of toys and panties from his desk drawer and showed them to Carol.  We made Barry explain why he the Hitachi vibrator and penis shaped butt plug in the drawer.

We then moved to the final stages of my plans.  I  informed Barry that since he loves to masturbate, he would now do so in front of Carol and me.  I also added that since he loves panties so much, he would do so using his panties. I then pulled out my smart phone and advised him that I was going to time him.  I explained that if he reached an orgasm within three minutes, his disciplinary session would be over.  I then added that if he was not successful I would use his Hitachi vibrator to finish the job for him and that he would then go back over Carol's and my laps together and we would take hairbrushes to him.

This took Barry quite by surprise.  He didn't come close to orgasm in three minutes, which didn't surprise me.  I knew he wouldn't be able to resist having me use the Hitachi on him or going back over our laps (even though it would be after an orgasm).  When the timer rang on my phone, I picked up the vibrator and plugged it in.  I made Barry continue to use the panties on this erection, but I added the vibrator.  In a matter of less than a minute he started to climax, at which time I immediately shut off the vibrator.  The look of surprise and disappointment on his face was priceless.  "You didn't think I was going provide you an enjoyable orgasm, did you?" I commented.  I could tell that Carol was also surprised by what I did.  I later learned that she was not familiar with the concept of a ruined orgasm.

After Barry cleaned himself up with the panties, Carol and I each took a hairbrush in hand, sat down facing each other, and turned Barry over our laps again.  We then administered a much harder spanking.   Sometimes Carol and I alternated spanks.  Sometimes we spanked both cheeks simultaneously.  And, for a short time I used my brush on Barry's upper thighs, while Carol worked on his cheeks.  When we finally stopped, I could tell that Barry was relieved to have it over.  This time there had been no erection pressing into my thigh.

The three of us then returned to the living room where we lit a fire in the fireplace and took some time to debrief with each other about what had happened.  Since this post is already quite lengthy, I'll save that information for my next post.  However, the bottom line was that all three of us enjoyed the evening.


PS  I would like to express my appreciation to all who offered comments and advice at the end of my last post.  Your caring and thoughts about making sure we would be OK with adding Carol to the role play was very kind and helpful.

PPS I think Barry did a wonderful job with the photos he inserted.  I hope you agree.

Monday, February 16, 2015

Planning for the Next Installment of "Corporate" Discipline

After Barry shared his decision to go forward with incorporating my sister, Carol, into our "Corporate" Discipline roleplay, we spent some more time talking about his desire for this type of fantasy, and discussing his definitions of embarrassment versus humiliation.  Embarrassment is a significant part of his fantasy, but humiliation is definitely not part of what either of us are comfortable with.  In trying to understand his definitions, I finally ended up listing a number of activities and asking Barry whether he would consider them embarrassing or humiliating.   The types of things on the list included:

  • being spanked in front of Carol over his panties or on the bare
  • being spanked by Carol over his panties or on the bare
  • having his genitals exposed to Carol
  • being sexually teased and denied in front of Carol
  • being brought to orgasm with a vibrator in front of Carol
  • experiencing a ruined orgasm in front of Carol
  • being required to masturbate in front of Carol
  • being fed his own cum in front of Carol
  • having a butt plug inserted in front of Carol
  • being pegged in front of Carol
I'm not comfortable with some of these items, but I was trying to provide Barry with a broad spectrum to help me better understand his limits.  When we were done talking, I felt quite comfortable that I know what he would consider to be humiliating, so I can be sure to not go there.

Yesterday I had Carol over to the house for lunch and we had chance to have a lengthy discussion about her potential participation in our little role play scene.  She was not surprised by the topic and was actually quite intrigued by it.  I think I may have mentioned before that Carol is quite a few years younger than me and has always been less sexually inhibited than I used to be.  The more we talked about the "Corporate" Discipline scenario, the more interested she became.  She was also very interested in learning Barry's feelings about her being involved.  And, she completely understood and agreed with the ground rules that I presented, which included:
  • Carol will follow my lead direction at all times
  • Carol will not directly initiate any activity (she can propose something to me during the role play, but must not initiate it unless I concur)
  • Carol will serve as a witness and will actively participate only when directed to do so
  • Carol will not touch Barry's genital area at any time
  • Carol will participate in spanking and paddling Barry, but will follow my lead and direction with respect to severity
I also shared with Carol some of my current thoughts concerning where I will take this segment of the roleplay and she seemed to like my ideas.  She also shared a couple of her ideas, which I am seriously considering.  In the end, we both felt quite comfortable with the entire idea and came up with a possible evening this week when we can make it happen.  

It is clear that Carol will be a very different participant than was Barry's sister a couple of years ago.  It is also clear that Barry will be in for one or two surprises.


Thursday, February 12, 2015

Barry's Decision

It didn't take Barry long to make his decision, which didn't surprise me.  Nor did his decision.  Tonight over dinner, Barry raised the matter of involving Carol in our role play.  He told me that he has been thinking about it a lot the past two days and he would like to try it.  Of course, that prompted a lengthy discussion, which included some ground rules about Carol's involvement.  I also probed Barry quite strongly about why this is so important to him and what fascinates him so much about having two women involved in the role play.  I basically learned that he has fantasized for many years about being spanked by two women who are sitting in chairs facing each other, with him over both of their laps.  He also focused on the arousal factor for him if he is put in an embarrassing situation with another woman present.  That led to a significant discussion about embarrassment versus humiliation.  Neither one of us want to go to the latter.  Consequently, Barry and I will continue to discuss more details of what he considers to be embarrassing and what he considers to be humiliating.

I also want to express my appreciation for the comments I have received to my last post, especially the caution about involving a family member in our role play.  After the situation with Barry's sister, I am very cautious.  However, I also have a much better knowledge of my sister.  If we proceed, Carol and I will have a very clear understanding of her role in this.  Carol is also a very different type of person than Barry's sister.  She has no ax to grind with Barry.  She also has always been much more open to things than I ever was.  But, the bottom line is that she and I will have some very specific ground rules.

So ... after our discussion tonight, Barry and I agreed that I will talk with Carol and see where things lead. Based upon her interest in my activities with Barry and what I know about her relationship with her ex-husband, I think I know what her reaction will be.  She is fascinated with Barry's and my relationship and would have liked to have had a more creative sex life with her ex.

I will keep you posted.


Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Where to Go Next with Role Playing

Over the weekend, Barry and I had a lengthy discussion concerning what to do next with respect to role playing.  The conversation began when I asked him if he'd like to continue developing the "Corporate" Punishment scene was have been working with, or whether he wanted to move on to something new.  As we worked through it, we decided that the current scenario has more potential that can be explored, so we decided to continue with it for a bit.  Last night, Barry brought up the subject and told me that he has been thinking about where we could go with the scenario.  He then completely surprised me when he said he would like to see us involve the first secretary (the one who had warned my new secretary) and or involve his wife along with his current secretary.  After recovering from the surprise, I asked him how he planned to involve two women in the same scene.  Of course, he had thought this through.  He suggested that we take an overnight trip to Chicago, where we could enlist the aid of a professional disciplinarian or fetish escort, similar to what he did years ago.  He was quite disappointed that I immediately said "No, we are not going to pay someone to do this sort of thing with us!"

This afternoon, I proposed a different solution to Barry.  I asked him what he thought about my sister, Carol, playing the role of a second woman.  Barry immediately protested that Carol doesn't even know that Susan spanks me.  I then had to confess that Carol does know about Barry getting spanked.  I explained that a month or so ago I had asked Carol to retrieve something from or bedroom for me and didn't realize that we had carelessly left several of our spanking implements on the dresser.  Carol didn't miss seeing them and she began asking lots of questions when she returned from the bedroom.  So, Carol knows!

Barry wasn't exactly thrilled about that development.  However, he also didn't immediately rule out Carol as our assistant.  That led to a discussion of how Barry would feel having Carol see him naked and spanking him.  He wasn't sure, but he decided he would think about it.  So, that's where it is at the moment.  I suspect we will talk more later tonight or tomorrow.

I am also very aware that we had a disasterous situation a couple of years ago when Barry's sister was involved with his birthday spanking.  She took over and gave Barry much more than he bargained for.  However, that relationship is very different from that of my sister and Barry.  I think it could work.  My sister is certainly open minded and curious enough to probably want to do it.  But, the final call needs to be Barry's.  I suspect it may depend upon how badly he wants to be spanked by two women at the same time.  That seems to be a major unfulfilled fantasy of his.

I will keep you posted ...


Monday, February 9, 2015

First Role Play - "Corporate" Discipline - Part 3

What I whispered into Barry's ear was not something I planned.  It was also not part of the role play suggested to us.  It was just spontaneous.

When I left our home office, I immediately went to our bedroom and changed into Barry's favorite negligee.  Since I had time, I also went and poured two glasses of wine which I took to our bedroom.  When he finally came upstairs, I was a wife who had been waiting patiently for her husband to arrive home from work ... and was very aroused (which I definitely was).

When Barry arrived, I played the role:  an aroused wife who didn't understand why he was late.  He didn't have any good answers, which didn't make me happy at all.  I let my sexual desire take over and tried to seduce him (I really needed to have my needs fulfilled at this time).  While questioning him about where he has been, I also began to remove his trousers.  He resisted, but I persisted.  As his trousers came down, I grasped his crotch and felt the mess in his panties.  My acting roll took over and I went ballistic with him.  He was clearly not expecting this and didn't know how to react.

After some tense conversation, I sent him to the bathroom to clean himself up.  While he was gone, I brought out the Libertor ramp and placed it on the bed.  I also brought out our newly acquired leather spanking strap.  When he reappeared, I ordered him over the ramp and began to use the strap on him while I interrogated him.  I didn't use it hard, since I didn't want this to be punishment at this time.  I eventually got him to confess to what had occurred in his office.  That resulted in me continuing to strap him as punishment (but it really wasn't).

When I was ready to conclude the "punishment",  I reminded him how I had waited patiently for him to return home and that I needed to have my "needs" fulfilled.  He got the message and immediately gently placed me on the bed and put his head between my legs.  After about ten minutes, I let him know that I needed more than that at this time.  I directed him to get our Ride-On Colussus, which he did.  After installing it over his limp penis, I put him on his back and climbed on to ride him Cow-girl fashion.  That way, I could control things, which I did.  It was wonderful

When I finished and removed the Ride-on, I was surprised to find him erect.  After a short time of teasing, we settled into a wonderful period of cuddling.  We ended up falling asleep in each other's arms.

So, thus ends our first role-play.  It was much more than either of us imagined it could be.  We each became more involved than we expected.  The next morning we spent time over breakfast debriefing about it ... and we were each amazed at how creative we each had become.

We seem to have found another new outlet for our passion.  This is something I never expected as we enter a new phase of our lives.


Sunday, February 8, 2015

First Role Play - "Corporate" Discipline - Part 2

When Barry lowered his trousers, I was definitely surprised.  I knew he would be wearing panties (since that is all he owns) and the fact he added a garter belt and stockings didn't surprise me.  I was very prepared to incorporate his feminine underwear into the scenario.  However, I never expected to see him wearing his chastity device locked in place!  His goal was to create something unexpected and unusal for the scenario we were acting out.  And, he succeeded.

Of course, I immediately reacted to how sweet he looked in his lingerie and pretended to not notice the outline of the cage inside his panties.  As I grabbed his crotch and started to tell him that I own him now, I reacted to feeling the cage and said "Oh ... it looks like someone else owns you as well!  Does your wife hold the key to this lovely little device?"  He eventually admitted that she does and that she has kept him locked most of the time for several months now.  I replied that I would like to meet this lovely women  I also mused that I wondered what her reaction would be if I cut the lock off and replaced it with my own. Barry immediately began stammering that I can't do that, to which I replied that I certainly can ... and just might the next time we get together this way.

I then decided to begin with the spanking portion of my plans.  I told Barry that his former secretary had shared with me that he has a special desk drawer where he keeps a variety of spanking implements and sexual toys, as well as his collection of panties that he has kept from the women he has spanked.  To make this part of the role play, I had previously prepared one of his desk drawers with a variety of things.  "Let's see what kind of toys you keep in your special drawer", I said as I opened it.  I proceed to remove each item as ask Barry about them one by one.  We found a nice variety of spanking implements, including a leather paddle, a wooden hairbrush, and a wooden ruler paddle,   In addition to three pair of women's panties, I produced a Hitachi vibrator, a set of nipple clamps, a penis shaped butt plug, a rather larger dildo, a tube of lubricant, a blindfold, and a pair of padded wrist cuffs..  Barry acted quite humiliated during this entire process and I enjoyed asking him lots of probing questions about what he does with them.  When he wasn't forthcoming, I would remind him that his last secretary and filled me in on lots of details.

We then moved into the first spanking phase of Barry's predicament.  Taking him over my lap, I proceeded to give him a good warm up spanking with my hand and the leather paddle.  It was apparent that he was enjoying it.  When I let him stand up, it was also apparent that he was straining within the chastity cage and it didn't look like it was very comfortable.  Of course I teased him about that.

I then directed Barry to remove his shirt and tie, leaving him in just his panties and stockings.  I cleared the top of his desk while he was doing so.  I then placed the blindfold and wrist cuffs on him and made him lie on his back on top of the desk.  Reminding him that I had learned from his last secretary how he had sexually teased her, I told him that I thought it would only be fair for him to get a dose of his own medicine.  I proceeded to use my finger tips to arouse him.  I eventually installed the nipple clamps and then put the Hitachi to work on his cage.  His reaction was priceless.  After some uncomfortable moments and relentless use of the vibrator, I enjoyed watching him climax while still restricted in by the cage, making a sticky mess of his nylon panties.

It was then time for some more spanking.  After having him turn over and lie on his stomach on his desk, I put the hairbrush and ruler paddle to good use.  Knowing how hard it is to receive a spanking after an orgasm, I went somewhat easy.   I reddened his bottom quite nicely, but I still wanted the role play to be fun and not punishment.  When I was done, I let him up and removed the blindfold and wrist cuffs.  His panties were now a complete mess from having climaxed in them earlier.  I then directed him to get dressed.

While he did so, I told him that I would plan to see him again next Wednesday night at the end of the workday for our next little mentoring session.  Once he was dressed and before I walked out the office, I went to him and whispered in his ear "This role play is not yet done.  I suggest you clean up your office and then come upstairs.  When you arrive in our bedroom, I will be playing the role of your wife."  This was a surprise that Barry clearly didn't expect.  His reaction was priceless.

To be continued in my next posting ....


Saturday, February 7, 2015

First Role Play - "Corporate" Discipline - Part 1

Barry and I had a lot of fun with our first role play, which took place Wednesday night.  Monday night Barry and I sat down over a class of wine and talked about the three suggested role play scenarios that were proposed to us.  We each liked all three.  After much discussion, we decided to try the "Corporate" Discipline suggestion first.  This type of scenario has been a favorite fantasy of Barry's for many years, so I was not surprised that he wanted to do it first.  I was intrigued by the unknown involved in it for Barry.  I didn't share any information about what might happen to him when the tables get turned.  That aspect made it very special to me.  With the decision made, we agreed that Wednesday night would be a good time to act it out.

Wednesday, as the day progressed, we bantered back and forth several times about the role play.  Barry, of course, had lots of suggestions.  I listened to them, but made no comments in return.  I thought it would be fun if we were both dressed and ready for our acting debut before sitting down with a glass of wine before dinner.  So, mid afternoon, I laid out the clothes that I thought we each should wear on our bed.  For Barry, I chose his best suit and most business-like tie with a white shirt.  For myself, I chose similar business-like attire:  a black, straight-line skirt with matching jacket and a light blue silk blouse.

When we were dressed and ready for a glass of wine and dinner, it was very apparent that Barry was quite excited about this endeavor.  Most of our conversation was about the role play.

After dinner, we prepared to start our role play.  Since Barry worked from home during much of his career he had accumulated furniture that furnishes our current home office quite nicely and it looks like a working office.  We agreed that the role play would begin with Barry in the office at the end of the work day.  I would come to see him at an agreed upon time to discuss my performance as his newly hired secretary.

I arrived promptly at the agreed upon time and made sure I appeared quite nervous about this type of meeting at the end of the work day.  Barry appropriately was very gracious about my agreeing to meet with him and quickly let me know how important it was for us to meet and discuss my performance.

He very professionally outlined my numerous deficiencies:  arriving late in the morning, excessive breaks, poor quality of work products submitted, complaints of lack of support to members of our team, etc.  He was very thorough.  When he came to the conclusion that he felt he needed to "let me go" during my probation period as a new hire, I had my chance to act appropriately for our scenario.  I became very emotional and begged him to give me another chance.  I told him how much I needed this job as a single parent to support my two children.

The outcome was what you would expect.  I agreed to be mentored and punished by Barry in order to keep my job.  He even had a written contract prepared, which I signed.  Once the formalities were taken care of, I quickly found myself lying over Barry's lap.  The position only enhanced the tightness of my skirt across my bottom and Barry began to slowly and firmly spank me.  It was clear that he wanted to get me excited, and he did.

After a lengthy period of this foreplay, he had me stand and raise my skirt.  I, of course, objected but eventually complied.  Back over his lap he spanked me over by panties with a similar level of intensity.  It was very erotic.  When he started to talk about lowering my panties and placed his hand between my legs to begin trying to stimulate me, I decided it was time to take control.

When Barry started to lower my panties, I abruptly stood up and told him that this was not going to happen.  I pointed to my purse that was sitting on his desk and pointed out my smart phone sitting on top of the purse.  As I grabbed it, I explained that it had recorded the audio of our entire meeting so far.  I also explained to him that his last secretary had contacted me and warned me about what would happen if I took this job.  I told him that I was skeptical, but I had decided to take necessary precautions.  Consequently, I was prepared when he asked me to his office at the end of the day.  It was exactly as she had predicted.

To make a long story short, Barry and I had a lengthy impromptu dialogue during which I took charge of him.  It became clear to him that I had sufficient evidence to end his career and he finally agreed to submit to me.  I had a basic document document prepared in which Barry confessed how he planned to gain control of me and sexually abuse me.  Based on our dialogue, I made a few modifications to it using Barry's PC.  I printed it and he signed it.  It really began to feel quite real.

I then ordered Barry to remove his trousers.  The look on his face was priceless.  He didn't want to do so.  I knew he was acting, but it took me by surprise.  I suspected that I may need to expect a surprise, which I did.

Since this post is getting quite long, I think I will save the rest of our role play for my next post.  It took a twist that I didn't expect and we both had fun playing things out.


PS ... I want to thank SSH for suggesting this wonderful role play.  As he will realize, we took some liberties with the proposal.  We needed to be able to add our own ideas as we acted out the role play.  You probably won't be surprised to see that we also continued to do so as it progressed.

Sunday, February 1, 2015

Thank You for Role Play Suggestions

I would like to thank Pecan Nutjob, TL, and SSH for submitting three wonderful role play ideas for Barry and me to try.  They were each unique and offered scenarios to which I can relate.  They each also offer some interesting twists or actitivities that will be fun for me to surprise Barry with.

Following are introductions and brief summaries my interpretation of the three role play suggestions.  I have purposely not included many of the details of what was suggested, because I want to be able to surprise Barry.

Thespian Discipline - basis of which submitted by TL

Susan is a prominent professor of theater in a major university.  Several years ago she had a very shy student (Barry), who she discovered to be equally talented at playing male and female roles.  By casting him in female roles, Susan brought out his feminine side and Barry found that he loved the clothes, especially full stockings, garter belt, and silk panty undergarments that he now could wear under his costume, free of guilt. 

Three years have passed and Susan recently ran into Barry, who was a junior PR person staffing the registration desk of a charity event Susan was attending at a local hotel.  Susan and Barry agree to meet at the hotel bar at the end of the day to catch up.  Susan was also attracted to Barry and that feeling reappears when they meet.  Since she is now not emcumbered by professor/student ethics restrictions, she decides to get a room at the hotel so that the two of them can completely relax together.

Once in the privacy of the hotel room, the passion grows for each of them.  Susan reaches to undo Barry's belt, but he stops her, which confuses her.  She suddenly realizes he concern, but proceeds anyway.  As she gently lowers his trousers, she confirms the reason for his hesitation.  He is wearing a garter belt, stockings, and white lace panties.  It is also obvious that he is completely shaved.  Susan compliments him on how lovely and sexy he looks.

Then, with both stripped down to their underwear, Barry grabs Susan's hands. He looks her in the eye and asks if she rememberes his final exam. Susan reminisces about how proud she ws that he 'aced' the final written exam. Barry's face turns momentarily dark and he casts his eyes downward. There's a moment of silence. Finally, Susan quietly ask Barry if he has something to tell her. In a stammering voice, he admits he cheated on that final. 

Sternly, Susan indicates the possible ramifications of this admission, including revocation of his university degree. He admits his understanding and asks if you has ever punished one of her students.  Susan suddenly realizes that she has just learned about another special aspect of Barry's character and needs.  It excites her.

The scenario continues from here ....

"Corporate" Discipline in the Office - basis of which submitted by SSH

Barry is a mid-level manager in a large corporation.  He is also has very strong and uncontrollable fetishes with respect to women's panties and spanking.  He recently hired Susan as his secretary and it is her second day on the job.

Susan's work performance on during the first week is dismal.  She arrived late every day, took excessively long lunches, and her work products contained many errors.

The role play begins with Barry calling Susan into his office at the end of the week.  He objectively shares with her his dissatisfaction with her work ethic and ability.  He also shares with her that he has decided to terminate her.  Susan breaks into tears and shares with Barry that she is a single mother and really needs this job.  She pleads with him to give her another chance.

Barry decides to offer her an option to keep her job:  she must be willing to submit to what he refers to as "Corporate" discipline from him to help her change her work ethic and quality.  He explains that this discipline will include mentoring by him and receiving spankings if her behavior does immediately improve.  She quickly agrees and Barry provides her with a written contract for her to sign, agreeing to this arrangement.  Once the agreement is signed, Barry informs her that she will receive a spanking that day to provide her with an immediate incentive to improve.  At this point Barry had no idea what what Susan had planned for him.

The scenario continues ...

Barry gets a Governess - basis of which submitted by Pecan nutjob

Barry is just entering puberty and his mother doesn't know how to guide him through this extremely important development stage of his life.  She decides to hire a governess to look after him and help him.  Susan has been selected for the job.  She is definitely not the typical "cane-wielding governess" that one might expect.  She is caring, sensitive, and very understanding of the needs of teenage boys.  After all, she ended up raising her brother who was ten years her junior after her mother had died suddenly of cancer.  However, as caring and sensitive as Susan is, she fully understands the need for accountability and discipline.

Barry and his governess develop a very close relationship.  The scenario begins as Barry is thirteen and his hormones are raging.

All three of these role play scenarios are very intriguing to me and to Barry.  I have shared this level of detail with him, but nothing more, since I want there to be surprises.  I am also very excited that each of these suggestion offer much flexibility and room for them to continue as an ongoing basis.  None of them will be "one and done" type role plays.  Again, thank you very much to Pecan Nutjob, TL, and SSH for submitting them.  I really appreciate the time and effort you put forth.

Within the next couple of days, Barry and I will decide which one to try first.  Barry and I will then find a way to share what we consider to be appropriate with you.


Sunday, January 25, 2015

Role Playing Suggestions Requested

Barry has always been fascinated with role playing.  When I first learned of Barry's need to be spanked several years ago, he confessed to me that for a number of years he had visited several dominas, as well as escorts who specialized in kinky sex when he traveled to different cities for work.  For each visit, he would compose a role playing scenario that he wanted to act out with the woman he was seeing.  They always involved Barry being spanked and sometimes pegged.  Sometimes they involved him spanking the escort before she found a way to 'turn the tables' on him.

I recently began to think about the discussions I had with Barry about his love for role playing.  I'm curious about using role play in our relationship at this time.  We've done a little bit with it, but not much.  I'm also intrigued with the idea of me creating the role play and causing Barry to have to respond to and deal with what I do, rather than him being so controlling of it (as he apparently was in his sessions years ago).

So ... here is my idea.  I would like my readers to email me ( your ideas concerning role play scenarios that would be appropriate for Barry and me.  I want them emailed to me so that Barry will not see them.  He will see this post and know that I am getting ideas. When I receive your suggestions, I will share the roles that we each will play with Barry, as well as a general concept of the role play.  But I will not share specifics of what you propose we do.  If we enact your role play, the specifics need to remain a surprise to Barry.

I will only share role play scenarios with which I am comfortable with Barry.  If he likes the general ideas that I share with him, we will enact it.  I will provide a posting of each role play we enact, and credit the contributor.  I will also include the specifics of your suggested role play in my posting if you give me permission to do so.

So ... if you like this idea, please send me your suggestions.  Please be specific about the role each of us should play.  Please also share as many specifics about what we should do as you want.  I will reserve the right to add or subtract from the specifics if we enact your role play.

I think this could be fun for Barry and me.  It will also provide a new source of creativity for me to address Barry's submissive needs, as well as my own.


Friday, January 23, 2015

Barry's Turn on the Barrel (Liberator Ramp)

Last night was Barry's turn to be completely exposed and vulnerable on our Liberator Ramp.  As we finished dinner, I advised Barry that I would take care of the dishes and suggested that he go take a shower and fully prepare himself for a visit to our love nest.  That comment brought a smile to his face, since "fully prepare" is our personal phrase to use a fleet enema and prepare for anal activity.  I also suggested that he wear his nice little teddy with stockings, but no panties, and told him to join me in the bedroom when he is ready.

I was done the dishes well before Barry appeared in the bedroom, which gave me ample to time to prepare a few things.  I positioned our ramp in the middle of our king bed and made sure the under bed restraint system was in place.  I then brought out some of the toys I planned to use and placed them on my dresser.

As Barry entered the room, I greeted him with a kiss and our blindfold, which I quickly placed over his eyes.  However, I'm sure he saw the ramp on the bed and the toys on the dresser.  After placing a clean towel over the high end of the ramp to protect its cover, I led Barry to the bed and helped him drape himself over the high end with his bottom projecting upward.  I then made sure his penis was pulled back between his legs and then utilized the under bed restraints to pull his legs out wide to the side and secure them.  His hands were also secured out in front of him.  He was now in the position he had put me earlier this week with his bottom, penis, balls, and inner thighs fully exposed and vulnerable.

As I secured him, I realized that his bottom was not as clean shaven as normal.  I pointed that out to Barry and told him that we would begin by shaving it smooth.  I also let him know there would be a price to pay for me having to do it.  I took my time preparing him with hot water and shaving cream; and then shaving his bottom, anus, and testicles.  When I was done, I left his bottom wet and began slowly spanking him with my hand.  I fully enjoy spanking his clean shaven bottom, especially since it usually seems more sensitive to him.  Of course, I also took time to tease his penis and testicles to keep him aroused.

After bringing his bottom to a nice pink color, I decided to turn my full attention to teasing his genitals.  Earlier this week I had changed the heads to our Sonicare toothbrush and decided to keep Barry's old head to experiment using the toothbrush on the head of his penis.  He couldn't see what I was doing, so he was quite surprised when he heard the brush and felt the affect on his glans.  It was quite effective.  I also found it had a lovely impact on him when I teased the area between his scrotum and anus with it, as well as his anus.  That really got his attention.  This will definitely be a keeper new toy to use again.

I then turned my attention back to spanking, this time with a variety of OTK tools.  I started out kneeling behind him, so I could spank with one hand and tease with the other.  I eventually also straddled the small of his back.  Either way, I had wonderful access to his entire bottom and inner thighs for spanking and to his genitals for teasing.  The end result, after a prolonged spanking was a uniformly crimson bottom (including his crack) and inner thighs.  The greatest part about it was the fact that I was able to keep him fully aroused the entire time.  Barry loves a firm spanking and he definitely got one last night.  It was clear that he would continue to feel the soreness from this one tomorrow,which I know he enjoys.

Barry's penis was still very aroused and it was clear from his motions that he wanted some relief.  I toyed with him about that for a while.  I eventually told him that I would provide a climax for him, but that there was still the matter of me having to shave him to deal with.  I explained that I planned to use his new spanking strap on his red bottom as payment for doing the shaving.  If he wanted an orgasm it would have to be prior to receiving the strap.  I was a little surprised that Barry quickly agreed to those terms.

Toying with him a bit more, I eventually provided his orgasm by milking him with my hand from behind.  When I was done, I then brought out the spanking strap.  I had to be careful with it, given Barry's exposed position.  I didn't want to hit his genitals.  So, I applied it entirely on the center of his upturned bottom.  Twenty sound strokes clearly made my point.  I then shared with him that I forgot to mention another condition for his orgasm.  I then inserted a butt plug in his bottom and told him that it will remain inserted until morning.

As I released him from the restraints, I suggested that it would be very appropriate for him to find a way to express his appreciation to me for the wonder orgasm he experienced.  He wholeheartedly agreed.  And he actually asked me if I would like to be pleased orally or with our new Ride-On Colossus penis extender.  I chose both.

It was a magical evening for both of us.  I loved having Barry in such an exposed and vulnerable position.  I also loved being able to spank and tease him at the same time, and to actually spank his penis a bit.  As long as I did it within reason, he remained aroused.

This morning, during breakfast, as we talked about last night, it was clear that we each enjoyed the same aspects of his exposure and vulnerability.  So, I gave Barry an assignment:  He is to come up with as many examples as possible of positions that will allow me to spank and tease his genitals at the same time.  I told him that he has free access to the Internet to do that, as long as I am in the house with him and know that he is working on it.  He seemed to like that idea.  We'll see where it leads.


Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Acquired Tastes: Being Submissive

It seems like ages since our Christmas get-a-way.  The flu was a huge part of that.  We were each sick at the same time and it was not fun.  We finally were able to recover and begin to resume a normal life.  And, last night we resumed "activities".  From what happened, I realize it is now time for me to share another "Acquired Taste".  Based upon our Christmas Eve activities, I knew it was only a matter of time, but I wasn't ready to share based upon one experience.

Last evening, after dinner, I shared with Barry that I was ready to take a hot shower and relax.  He encouraged me to do so and said that he would take care of cleaning up from our dinner.  Shortly after I entered the shower, Barry appeared in the bathroom and asked if he could join me in the shower.  That was exactly what I had hoped for.  But, I never expected the evening to develop as it did.

Barry entered our shower stall with me, with the blindfold I had given him at Christmas.  He quickly put it do use, with no resistance from me. He then whispered into my ear that he hoped I could relax and let things flow.  I have to confess that I felt readiness to do that.

I quickly found myself having my hands secured in the wrist cuffs that are secured to the shower walls with suction cups.  These are toys that I normally use for Barry when I shave him or tease him in the shower.  He had me secured facing the shower wall.  I was a bit nervous, but he quickly shared with me that I can "Say No" at any time and he will honor my request.  He proceeded to use the handheld shower to cleanse and tease me.  By rubbing against me, he also made it obvious that he was extremely aroused.

He eventually left the shower and returned.  At that point, he started to insert a Fleet enema in my bottom.  I started to protest.  He again reminded me to relax and said that I can always "Say No" later.  I did relax. After Christmas eve, I trusted him fully.  We eventually left the shower and he helped me to the toilet.  Enough said.  He then let me to the bedroom, still blindfolded.

In the bedroom, I ended up being positioned over the Liberator ramp which was placed at the bottom of our bed.  My hips were raised and my legs were spread and secured.  My hands were also secured in front of me.  It was only later, as I felt Barry's tongue down below, did I realize how completely vulnerable I was.

During all of this, Barry was so gentle that I never felt concerned.  I never thought of saying "No" or "Stop".   The details are not important at this time.  What is important is that I felt safe and comfortable.  I felt Barry's tongue in places I never expected.  I also felt him spanking me in a kind and gentle way.  It was exquisite.  The spanking was all over my bottom and thighs ... and sometimes on my privates.  But it was always in a way that aroused me.

I eventually felt something being inserted in my bottom.  I started to say "No".  However, it was so gentle that I didn't.  At first I thought it was Barry, but then it began to vibrate.  After that, I'm not sure what happened, but it was clear when Barry entered my vagina with his penis.  He slowly worked himself in and out, clearing hitting my magic spot.  As he proceeded, we each eventually achieved a climax, the order of which, I'm not really sure.  It didn't matter at that point.

Barry has clearly tuned in to my submissive side.  I didn't even know I have this need or desire.  Some may wonder how this fits into our 'Devotional Sex' side.  All I can offer at this time is that I knew I was in control and could say "no" at any time.  I didn't want to do so.

This does not mean I want to give up my dominate side.  I clearly don't want to do so.  And, Barry's submissive nature is still very apparent.  However, it is clear that we will continue to work on meeting each of our needs.  We each seem to enjoy being dominant and submissive.

Who would have thought this possible ...


Saturday, January 17, 2015

Spanking the Flu

Oh, how I wish that could easily be done (Spank the Flu).  Barry and I are each finally recovering from extended bouts with that nasty little devil this month.  And, we each had our flu shots ... early this year!    It is safe to say that nothing of interest has taken place in our lives since my last post.

Hopefully, the rest of you are avoiding this illness.  Keep washing your hands.


Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Where Do We Go From Here

Barry and I are still glowing in the after thoughts of our special time away.  I think it is fair to say that it was as much and more than each of us had expected.  There many special moments and a number of surprises for each of us.  We've had numerous conversations, starting with during our four hour drive home.  We began with questions like "What was your favorite gift received?" and "What did you like best?" and "What surprised you the most?".  Since then, we have progressed to things like "What do you want to make sure we keep doing?" and "What do you not want to do again?".  We are now at the stage of "Where do we go from here?".

It quickly became clear to each of us that we each pushed the envelope a bit with our gifts to each other, and we each loved what the other did.  There was really nothing done by either of us that was not appreciated by the other.  It also quickly became clear to each of us that we are ready to move forward and create more exciting times with each other. So, we began to attempt to prioritize a bit about where to start.   We don't want to overthink or overplan, but we need someplace to start that is meaningful to each of us.  So, we began to talk about "What the two most meaningful things that happened during our time together?".

Barry's two answers were:

  • Christmas Eve when I became completely submissive to him; and
  • Getting spanked again, especially in a non-disciplinary way (spanking has really fallen by the wayside during the past several months).
My two answers were:

  • Realizing how much I love to play with Barry's penis and testicles; and
  • Realizing that I loved what he did to me when I became submissive (that was a huge surprise to both of us).
So, the first things we're going to work on is bringing back spanking for non-disciplinary manner and finding more time for me to explore my love of his genitals.  We need to talk a little more about my submissiveness and how to incorporate it within our Devotional Sex lifestyle.  That shouldn't be too hard.  I've begun to think in terms of "As the Princess, I make decisions about what will happen next ... and that decision could be to give the reigns to Barry once in a while.".    The more I think about it, the more comfortable I get, especially, since Barry established a huge level of confidence for me that he will do the right thing.

So, spanking and genitals!  Why was I not surprised when Barry asked me to watch this Fm Spanking Video yesterday.  I apologize for it being a bit lengthy.  However, if you watch it, I think it will become clear why Barry recommended it.

To make a long story short, last night I gave Barry a spanking similar to what is depicted in the video and we are now also exploring other positions in which I can spank him that gives me lots of view and access to his genitals.  We each loved what happened.

It is quickly  becoming clear to each of us that we are ready to grow more and that we have many common interests.  A few years ago, I would have never imagined that this is where our journey would lead us.  I'm still a bit shocked in many ways.  "What would my mother say?" :-)


PS - Thanks to Barry's encouragement and his tech ability, I have returned to trying to include photographs (and today, a video) in my posts.  He provided that input early in my blog, but got a bit tired of doing it for me.  He suggested that I go back to including things of interest.  And, this time he is working to teach me how to do.  However, the past few posts were mostly all of his work.

Saturday, January 3, 2015

Christmas Retreat - Part 3

Finally, the last post in this series.  I must apologize for taking so long to share our Christmas escape weekend.  It took me some time to digest and decide what to share.  And then, our children were coming for a New Year's celebration, since they couldn't be with us for Christmas.  So, I will now pick up where we left off:  at lunchtime on Christmas Day.  There were still some surprises in store for each of us.

During a light lunch we talked about what we would like to do the rest of the day.  I advised Barry, that I would really like to spend some time at the pool, jacuzzi, and sauna with him.  I reminded him that he probably needed some time to relax and recover :-).  He quickly shared that he had forgotten to pack a bathing suit.  He was not pleased when I shared that I had packed the speedo bathing suit that I had recently given him.  I also need to share with our readers that since Barry had lost weight again (he looks amazing), I love his small compact bottom.  And, it looks wonderful in a speedo bathing suit.  However, Barry is very self-conscious in it, since it shows everything in front.  He gets very self-conscious when he experiences 'shrinkage' when swimming.  The look on his face when I told him I had packed it made me very glad that I had purchased his next 'gift'.  I didn't say anything at the time, but waited until we got back to the room to change.

Back at the room, I shared my final gift with Barry: a soft packing dildo that is amazingly realistic.  I hoped that it would make him feel more comfortable wearing the speedo swimsuit.  I also liked the fact that it would make him always look about the size that I think of him.  When he put the speedo swimsuit on with the packer, he looked amazing.  I loved his tight little bum, and he loved the look from the front. We were each very pleased.  So, we went down to the pool and sauna.  We thoroughly enjoyed the time to relax with each other.  I must confess that I couldn't resist patting his sexy tight bum a couple of times.  And, I caught him grasping his crouch as well.  I was also aware of one woman in the pool area that couldn't seem to keep her eyes off of Barry's frontal area.

Needless to say, we each had a wonderful time relaxing together in the pool area, and also enjoying the jacuzzi and sauna.  When we returned to our suite, I had on last surprise for Barry.  When I learned about his submissive fantasies and activities prior to him sharing them with me, I learned about Barry's visits to dominant females who would role play with him.  His favorite roleplay was to have his female boss confront him with knowing he was spending too much time on the computer viewing porn sites.  When we returned to our room, while Barry was showering, I changed into formal office dress and greeted him when he came out of the bathroom.  He was caught completely by surprise and we had a bit of fun before we went to dinner.

When we returned to our suite for dinner, I was ready to be pleased by Barry.  He was also ready to please me. He was very grateful for all I had done.  However, we ran into a problem.  He was spent.

 He began by pleasing me orally.  However, when we proceeded further, there were problems.  He then presented his final gift to me, the Ride-on Colussus".  We have the original ride-on, but this is a tad bid longer and thicker.  Barry shared with me that he was afraid that he wouldn't be able to keep up with my needs, so this was his final gift.  He also tearfully shared his gratefulness for our wonderful time together and that his final gift also included a promise to try to please me in every way he could.

After considerable thought, I have decided to merely share that Barry more than fulfilled his promise.  The rest of our Christmas evening was ... unbelievable.  I'm not ready to share any more details than that.

I feel very blessed with what Barry and I have in our relationship.  I'm sometimes saddened that it took us so long for me to realize what he needed.  However, I'm extremely glad that we eventually came to a point where he could share his desires with me.  I'm also extremely glad that I was open to trying to understand those needs and try to meet them.    We will probably never completely meet each other's needs, but at this moment we are each trying.  What a gift to each other.

Happy New Year to everyone,


Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Christmas Retreat - Part 2

When we awoke Christmas morning we decided to order breakfast to be brought to the room.  That decision was prompted by my desire start our playtime sooner, rather than later.  As soon as Barry called in our order, I reminded him that he belonged to me that day and that his first order of business was to take a shower and properly prepare himself for any activity I may desire (which he knew meant to properly prepare for anal).

While Barry was in the bathroom, I prepared my first gift of the day for Barry ... an under the bed restraint system.  We had been using some of Barry's old neckties at home, but I didn't know if our bed at the hotel would have a headboard and a footboard that we could tie them to. By the time he appeared, I had removed all of the bedding except for the bottom sheet and succussfully installed the system on our king bed.  I then tied a red bow to one of the cuffs with a note telling Barry that this is where he will spend the next several hours.  I also laid out a number of toys on the dresser in the bedroom, including the blindfold that I had given Barry to use on me, our Whartenburg wheel, a feather, my strap-on, and Barry's next two presents that were still wrapped.  When Barry came into the bedroom, I could see him taking it all in and his excitement was apparent.

About that time, our breakfast arrived, so I asked Barry to take care of receiving it while I got dressed.  I put on this little outfit which I had purchased especially for this event.  I knew that Barry would love it and that I would feel quite dominant in it.  Before appearing in the living room of our suite, I put the hotel bath robe on, so that I could surprise Barry with it after we ate breakfast.

I knew that Barry was excited, so I purposely made sure we took our time over breakfast.  It was a delicious meal and I wanted to make sure we savored it.  I also wanted to increase Barry's anticipation of what was to come.  That was easy to do.  Of course, I also let my bath robe partially reveal the outfit a couple of times, which only added to his anticipation.

Once breakfast was done, I took Barry's robe off of him and he was ready for action.  After leading him into the bedroom, I secured him to the bed, spread-eagled with the Liberator wedge under his bottom to slightly elevate it and provide easy access to his bottom.  Once he was secure, I removed my bath robe and started the fun.  After letting him enjoy the view, I straddled his head and directed him to make sure I was excited as he was.  It didn't take him long to achieve that goal.  I then let him know that he was in for a long session of teasing.  After blindfolding and toying with him for a half hour I asked him if he would like me to unwrap his next gift.

After removing the blindfold I opened a package containing a penis pump.  The gleam in his eyes was amazing.  I then took my time opening the package and reading the instructions to make sure I knew how to use it.  When I finally put it over his penis and began drawing out the air, he was as excited as I have ever seen him.  I could tell that he loved watching his penis expand to fill the cylinder.  However, I don't think he expected what I did next.  I installed the nipple suction devices that he had given me on his nipples and then told him I was going to go have a cup of coffee in the living room.  I left him as he was for about thirty minutes.  When I returned and began removing the nipple devices and the penis pump, his reaction was extremely enjoyable to watch.

I then decided to get on top of him cow-girl style and further torment him.  I should probably also share that at the beginning of our little session that day, I instructed Barry that he was not allowed to climax without my permission and that if he did, he would not like the consequences.  I proceeded to tease and deny Barry for the next two hours, using a variety of our toys.  I sometimes blindfolded him and sometimes let him see me and what I was doing.

I eventually asked him if he would like me to unwrap his next gift.  Of course he said yes.  And I opened a box containing the spanking strop shown here.  Barry has recently had a fascination with the idea of being strapped.  All of our spanking toys so far have been paddles, hairbrushes, rulers, etc ... all hard.  He has never experienced the strap.  On Christmas he did.  I removed his wrist and ankle bindings and put the Liberator ramp in the center of the bed.  I then resecured Barry with the bindings while he was bent over the ramp.  It put his bottom in a perfect position for strapping.  While I didn't administer a punishment type of spanking, I definitely let Barry know what this strap could do.  I took my time as I learned how to use it.  I quickly realized that I need to avoid any wrapping of the strap around his hips. It also didn't take long to learn that if applied to the backs of his thighs, it was deadly.  It is going to be a very flexible toy:  one that I can use for fun or one that can provide real discipline.

By this time, I wanted to give Barry a very nice reward ... an orgasm.  Again, removing his restraints, I positioned him on his back on the Liberator with his hips and bottom presented upwards and accessible.  I then resecured him.  He was now in a wonderful position for taking my strap-on and I would also have ready access to his penis.  I don't think I want to share any more details at this point, other than we both enjoyed ourselves.

By this time it was a little after noon-time.  It was time for lunch and a break.  And, the day was still young.

Sunday, December 28, 2014

Christmas Retreat - Part 1

By the time Wednesday morning arrived, Barry and I were each like two young children who could hardly wait for Christmas to arrive.  In the back of my mind, I was also hoping that we each hadn't created expectations so high that we were doomed to be disappointed.  That definitely did not end up being the case.  We left early in the morning and stopped and had breakfast on the way, and arrived at the resort shortly after noon.  Our room was not yet ready.  However, by the time we had lunch we were able to check in.

Once we unloaded the car and unpacked our suitcases we decided to begin the festivities by showering together, with the promise that this would merely be an appetizer with no intercourse or climaxes.  After we dried off and put on some fun lingerie (Barry included), Barry said that he wanted to present one of his gifts first. It was a Liberator ramp and wedge.  The fun immediately began as we attempted the various positions provided in photos that came along with it.

We were quite giddy and enjoyed the impossibility of some of them, as well as the comfort of others.  It quickly became apparent that this was going to be a wonderful addition to our bedroom.  After much play and experimentation, as well as an orgasm by each of us, we decided we needed to slow things down a bit.  We took some time to explore the resort facilities.  We concluded that activity with a visit to one of the cocktail lounges where we enjoyed a glass of wine and decided to utilize room service for our dinner that night.  We had never done that and decided it would be a very nice, decadent treat for Christmas eve.

As we finished dinner, I presented my first gift to Barry.  The box contained a satin blindfold, a pair of fur lined wrist cuffs, and a thin leather paddle with fur on one side of it, plus the following note:

   These items symbolize my complete submission to you tonight.
   I am yours for the entire evening, so put them to use.
  Take me and use me in any way you desire.
  All I ask is that you be patient, tender, and loving in all you do.

                                          Merry Christmas darling,

     PS - Tomorrow you will be mine :-)

A huge smile immediately appeared on Barry's face and his first statement was "We are both going to have a special evening!  Thank you."

I've been talking with Barry and debating with myself for two days about how much of this evening to share.  I've come to the decision that I want to keep most of it private,  It truly was a very special evening for both of us.
It began by Barry presenting me with another gift.  A set of three nipple suction devices.  All three of them were put to use, but I'll let you use your imagination as to why there were three and where the third one was used.  He also made good use of the three items included in my present to him, as well as a number of other toys from the collection we brought with us from home.

I must confess that I was apprehensive about the blindfold and handcuffs that I gave Barry.  I have never been in that sort of predicament, but I found that I loved it.  Not being able to know exactly what was going to happen turned out to be a huge turnon and the handcuffs very gently gave me a feeling of helplessness, even though I was not helpless at any time.  I also loved the leather/furry paddle, which Barry expertly applied in a very erotic way.

Barry made sure that my sexual needs were met, as well as his own.  He is also pushed my limits in several areas, but was gentle in all that we did.  I must confess that he had me do several things that I would have never agreed to do if I hadn't given Barry carte blanche approval in advance.  However, I don't regret one moment of the evening.

We were up playing until midnight and each slept extremely soundly until 8 the next morning.

Christmas was another special day.  I will share some of that in my next post.


Monday, December 22, 2014

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to all who celebrate it!  This will be my last post until Barry and I return from our little retreat.  Less than two days until we depart and we are each still very excited.

Barry has been caged since early last week and I have done my best to keep both of us on edge.  The various gifts for him that I ordered on line have been arriving.  I have purposely left the unopened packages out where Barry can see them.  Most are in non-descript packaging, so he doesn't know where they were purchased, but he knows some special things are arriving.  I've been taking his cage off every couple of days and we have showered together.  Lots of teasing and fondling on both of our parts, but no orgasms for either of us.

We have a four plus hour drive on Wednesday, so we may leave early and have breakfast on the way.  We are hoping to be able to get into our suite in early afternoon, but there is no guarantee.  I almost feel like a bride preparing for her honeymoon :-).

Be safe and healthy over the holidays.  I look forward to sharing when I return.


Friday, December 19, 2014

Acquired Tastes: Felatio and Handwork

Barry would probably like me to have called this "Acquired Tastes:  Blow Jobs and Hand Jobs".  However, I must confess that I absolutely hate those two terms.  They sound vulgar and crude to me.  And, they don't begin to convey my feelings when I use my mouth or my hands to provide Barry with pleasure.  Enough said about these two male terms!

My reason for choosing this topic is that this is another area where I have experienced a complete reversal with respect to how I feel about sexual activity. Prior to three years ago, I had used my mouth once on Barry's penis and it was an awful experience.  I also avoided even touching his penis when we made love.  I hated its wet sticky feeling when he oozed fluid while excited.  Needless to say, I also hated (and still don't really enjoy) the mess he makes when he climaxes.

OK, I got those feelings out of the way.  What I really want to share is the transformation I have experienced and how much I enjoy finding ways to please Barry sexually, especially since he has made such an effort to learn to please me.  I now fully enjoy using my mouth (in a limited way) and my hands to tease and excite him.  This change has come about due to a several things, which I will try to explain in this post.

One of the things that helped the most for me to make this transition was our decision for Barry to shave his private area.  With the hair gone, I found Barry's penis and testicles quite interesting.  It made me want to learn more about them.  When I think about it, it probably also had a lot to do with the fact that I couldn't deal with getting all the hair in my mouth if I tried to pleasure him that way.

The second thing that continues to assist me in this area is a woman known as Klixen.  When I first discovered Barry's collection of photos and video links, she was a prominent figure in his section concerning "blowjobs and handjobs" (Barry's name of his folder containing them).  Below are two links than help demonstrate why I consider her a mentor in this area:  -- This video shows how Klixen expertly and lovingly is able to slowly bring her partner to an orgasm.  I was amazed at how calmly and lovingly she achieves her goal and how calm her partner is as he climaxes.  I loved the way she stays focused on him and how peaceful the entire process is.  I've not been able to achieve what she does, but I continue to try to emulate her. -- This video is a compilation from numerous others.  However, I love the way it demonstrates both her oral and hand techniques, as well as her loving focus on her goal.  I confess that I can't deal with semen on my face the way she does.  However, Barry and I have an understanding about that.

Klixen's videos were able to show me that oral and manual stimulation doesn't have to be crude.  They each can be loving acts.

So, I have now been able to incorporate felatio and handwork into my repertoire of activities that please Barry.  I couldn't have imagined being able to do so three years ago.


Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Preparing for our Christmas Retreat

Barry and I each continue to be very excited about our special Christmas this year.  I've decided to maximize his anticipation as we make our final preparations, since our special time is now only a week away.  Last night during dinner I announced to Barry that he is not to orgasm until our retreat, and that to assure that happens I will lock him in his chastity device.  After some light amorous teasing and cuddling when we got into bed, I did just that.  He will remain in the device until we arrive at the resort, except when I remove it for some light sexual activity (no intercourse or orgasm).  This way he will be fully charged and ready for pleasure when we arrive.

This morning, I decided to increase the anticipation some more for him.  He was planning to go into town this morning to do our grocery shopping.  During breakfast we put together a list for him and I added some things that raised his eyebrows.  These included:

  • 6 Fleet enemas
  • KY Jelly (large tube)
  • Lidocaine cream
  • Condoms (snug fit)
This list definitely piqued his curiosity and raised his excitement level. I'm sure that he suspects that there will be anal activity.  However, he doesn't have any way of knowing whose anus will be involved.  And, I don't plan to tell him.  It could be his, mine, or both.

Now I just need to keep my creative juices flowing and find ways to increase the anticipation each day until next Wednesday.

This is so much fun!

Monday, December 15, 2014

Acquired Tastes: Anal and Doggy Style

Last night Barry and I had a discussion about my blog and the types of things I should post about.  He suggested that I do a series of posts about how things have changed in our sex life since we began this journey.  He also expressed is love and gratitude for how much I have changed and how open I am now to trying new things and finding ways to please him.

I liked his idea, because it makes a lot of sense.  However, I also shared with him that I have some hesitancy to write about these types of details with respect to myself.  It is much easier to write about Barry then to be so open and candid about my thoughts and actions in the bedroom.  However, I've decided to give it a try.  This is my first attempt to share more details about how I've changed in our relationship and sexual activities.

Until Barry and I began our sexual journey several years ago, I was very prudish about sex and not very open to experimentation or anything other than the basic missionary position.  I abhorred the doggy style position primarily because of the name.  It seemed to reduce sex to an animalistic act.  I allowed Barry to try anal with me on one occasion, but also deplored it, so he never pushed it again.

I still can't say that I would put either of those options high on my list of preferences.  However, I now am able to enjoy them enough to not consider them taboo and I am willing to indulge in them to please Barry.  Anal (whether it is Barry penetrating me or me pegging Barry) was the toughest for me to deal with.  However, by following several procedures I have been able to eliminate most of the negativism that kept me from being able to do it.  Following are the procedures we follow:

Prior Preparation:  Before we engage in any anal activity, the receiver always thoroughly cleans their rectal area and lower colon.  We use either a Fleet enema or a large enema bulb that we purchased at our pharmacy.  That reduces most of the mess that can come with anal intercourse and also eliminates the possibility of have stools become impacted from the penetration.

Lubrication:  The receiver is always thoroughly lubricated prior to penetration.  If it is Barry, he takes care of doing that for me.  If it is me on the receiving end, he also gently takes care of it.  We use either KY Jelly for Barry or a desensitizing product such as Anal Eeze for me.  These types of products contain some lidocaine which helps make the penetration more comfortable.

Condoms:  We always use a condom, either on Barry's penis, my strapon, or any anal toys.  This makes clean-up much easier and less messy.  It also helps make sure that there is no cross contamination if we move from anal to vaginal sex.

Partner Awareness:  We are each extremely careful to be fully aware of how the receiving partner is feeling during the penetration.  If there is any pain, we immediately adjust appropriately.

A few years ago, I would have never imagined that I would allow Barry to penetrate me in this way or that I would use a strap-on on him.  It is still not something that I would choose, but it has also become an important part of our lovemaking.


Sunday, December 14, 2014

Planning our Christmas Together

Barry and I are both anxiously anticipating our special time together over Christmas this year.  I would like to begin this post by thanking those of you who submitted your wonderful suggestions for my special gifts to each Barry.  I have decided upon some (and ordered them), and am still making some decisions about a few things.  I plan to order everything by tomorrow.  I must confess that I'm having difficulty picking between a few things.  There are so many fun items that I'd like to get for him.

One reader shared with me that when he and his wife go away for a weekend, he composes a story sharing how his imagination thinks the weekend should go.  He suggested that it might work for Barry and me.  I like the idea and have discussed it with Barry.  We are currently discussing whether we should each write such a story, or at least find some way to share our fantasies with each other.

We have made a couple of decisions.  We decided to set a maximum amount that we will each spend for our special gifts to each other.  We have also decided that we will spread out how we open them over the time we are at the resort.  We're currently thinking that some will be opened Christmas eve, some Christmas morning, and the remainder Christmas night.  As we discuss our plans, it has become very clear to me that Barry and I are each focused on finding new and fun ways to please the other and that will be the focus for each of us.  I suspect that our positive experience with Devotional Sex has helped bring each of us to this perspective.

We are each feeling like little kids ... and can't wait for Christmas to come.


Tuesday, December 9, 2014

A Lesson Learned the Hard Way - PLEASE Don't Text and Drive

Yesterday I learned a very hard lesson that I hope none of you have to learn. Please don't text and drive.

I was on our local interstate highway traveling in the middle lane.  I apparently drifted into the right lane.  Before I knew what had happened, my car and another one were careening off the road.  I have no idea what I hit, but my airbags deployed.  The other car also ended up off the road,  I thank God that I and the people in the other car were not injured. The other car contained a mother and her two young daughters.  It was an awful experience.

My car could not be driven since the airbag had deployed.  Fortunately, Barry was reachable by cellphone and he came to the scene and could take be home.  Once he realized I was OK, it was a very quiet ride home.  As we pulled into our garage he finally spoke:  "Were you texting?".  I had to admit that I was.  There was again silence as we walked into the house.  I couldn't take it and finally asked Barry to talk to me.  He was obviously very upset and was having trouble being able to express himself.  He finally managed to say something like "I don't know what to say.  I have asked and asked you not to text while you drive.  I almost feel like turning you over my knee and giving you a spanking that you will remember for the rest of you life. "  For some reason, I responded that maybe he should because I deserved to be punished.

Barry immediately took me by the arm and led me to our bedroom.  He led me to face the mirror on my dresser and told me to stand there and look myself in the eye and to think about what I had done.  He bluntly informed me that I could have killed myself as well as a mother and her two young daughters.  He then left the room.

When he returned he placed a dining room chair at the foot of our bed.  He then took me by the arm and led me to his side as he sat on the chair.  Before I knew it I was lying over his lap and my skirt was pulled up above my waist.  The first spank landed immediately and it was a hard one.  This was going to be very different from the erotic spankings that Barry occasionally gives me.  He proceeded to continuously spank me hard.  I just laid there and absorbed it.  After a while he told me to stand.  When I did so, he lowered my pantyhose and panties to my knees and began to lecture me as he took me back over his lap.  The lecturing continued as the spanking resumed, even harder than before.  Somewhere in the process he switched from using his hand to my wooden hairbrush that I keep on my dresser.  I hadn't even realized that he had picked it up before he took me over his lap.   I finally burst into tears and just sobbed as the spanking continued.  The sobbing was not from the pain (although it hurt like the devil).  It was purely emotional as it sunk into me how close I had come to ruining a number of peoples' lives.  I was like a wet dishrag when he finally stopped and helped me to my feet.  I collapsed and sat on his lap as he hugged and kissed me.

Afterwards we decided to go out to a local cafe for dinner.  Neither one of us had the energy to cook at home.  I sat very gingerly and I am still sore this morning.  When I got ready for bed I inspected my bottom.  It was still quite red, but not bruised.

One thing is certain, I will never text while I'm driving again.  The potential consequences are just too great.  I am thankful that yesterday's situation did not result in a disaster.  I'm not sure how I feel about the spanking I received.  Barry spanked in a loving and caring way, but it was definitely a discipline spanking.  I know I deserved it, and in some ways I'm glad that Barry gave it to me.  However, I guess I'm just not sure how I feel about him spanking me like that even though I realize that I gave my consent.


Sunday, December 7, 2014

More Thoughts on Devotional Sex

In a comment to Barry's recent post about Devotional Sex, Dave said "I don't understand why both your needs can't be met, why is it that she says its time to stop? Seems selfish to me, like she's trying to get revenge for when her needs weren't met....".  I was initially a little offended by Dave's implication that I am trying to gain revenge with Barry for when my needs weren't met.  As I've had time to think about the comment more, I realize that perhaps I haven't adequately explained how and why DS works for Barry and me.

With DS, Barry and I each now approach sex from a perspective of desiring to please our partner.  I actually now do many things for Barry's pleasure that I couldn't imagine doing two or three years ago.   Barry also provides pleasure to me in many new ways from several years ago.  However, Barry and I have also come to understand that pleasure doesn't always have to include an orgasm.  I don't experience one every time we make love, but that doesn't mean I haven't been pleasured and feel wonderful.  Barry feels the same way.  There are times when cuddling is all I want.  There are also times when Barry finds it very pleasurable to be teased and denied.  Barry and I have also found that his not always achieving an orgasm keeps him more aroused and attentive.  We each like that.  Several male readers also commented about their experience with respect to that outcome of DS.

I also realize that DS is not for everyone.  Our version of it works very nicely for Barry and me, which is the important thing to us.  I hope our sharing helps others find whatever way works best for them in their sexual relationship, whether or not it involves DS.