Wednesday, February 24, 2016

Barry's Increased Libido

Since I last posted, Barry continues to have increased libido with respect to me (as opposed to masturbation).  I firmly believe that Devotional Sex and his chastity device play a key role in this.  Since Valentine's Day, he has frequently made efforts to pleasure me (sometimes too often, but I love seeing his desire).  He has also not complained about his chastity device, I suspect because he knows he needs that type of control.

Interestingly, last night he broached the subject of pegging with me.  He shared how sexy our Valentine's Day experience was with respect to him having the dildo in his bottom.  In his words, "it enhanced everything else I did".  He asked (almost begged) if I would consider pegging him in the future, even if it didn't result in an orgasm for him.  I was a bit surprised, but also pleased with his confession and sharing of need.

I didn't answer right away.  I told him that I needed to think about it.  After I did so, I came back to his request and shared with him that I would happily consider it.  However, I then told him what I was thinking.  I suggested that I would use a strap-on dildo to peg him and provide him with a very special experience if he would agree that Carol and Helen would be invited to witness the event.  My line of reasoning was that I needed to explore and challenge Barry's degree of submissiveness.  It seems to be very strong and this challenge to him would tell me how strong it is.

To my surprise, Barry immediately agreed.  He didn't even think about it!  My sense of his submissive needs were immediately confirmed.

Soooo, this morning I called Helen and invited to her to come over for coffee.  She accepted and we had a very interesting conversation.  I shared with some of my discussion with Barry and asked her if she would be willing to again be a witness to what would happen.  I didn't know what to expect, since I don't think Helen even knew what "pegging" meant when I started to talk with her.  However, she quickly, and excitedly, agreed.  She is a very interesting and open woman.  I still needed to talk with Carol, but I knew she would love this, so Helen and I set a tentative date of tomorrow evening.  I suggested that we have coffee and dessert together, and Helen immediately offered to bring the dessert.

Later today, I called Carol and shared my plans with her, including some of my thoughts about what I would like her to do.  She was immediately "all in".

So ... tomorrow evening we will gather.  And, Barry is in for some surprises that may challenge him.  I think he will like them, based upon what I have observed about his submissiveness.

We shall see ...


Thursday, February 18, 2016

Checking in with Helen

I had not heard anything from Helen since Barry's punishment, which began to concern me.  We usually touch base by telephone or meeting for coffee at least once a week.  So yesterday I gave her a call.  I just wanted to see how she was doing and I didn't know if her silence was due to what she had observed that night, or if there was something else going on in her life.  It was time to check in with her.

I decided to take the direct approach and just ask her how she was.  Depending on her response, I was prepared to bring up the direct question of whether her silence was due to what she observed that evening.  And, that is what I had to end up doing.  I was very thankful that Helen was candid and honest with me.  She suggested we get together for coffee this morning, which we did.  I learned that Helen did have somewhat of a tough time that night.  She shared that it brought back some tough memories of her not being able to meet her husband's needs with respect to spanking.  I was also surprised to hear her acknowledge that she experienced a conflict of those memories and being somewhat excited to watch me punish Barry so severely.  She also seemed to really enjoy being a major reason for Barry being completely embarrassed or humiliated by having her watch.  She also apologized for not sharing that with me sooner, but she explained that she is still trying to deal with those conflicted feelings.

I could fully understand and, in some ways relate to what she was saying.  We ended up having a really good conversation, which seemed to increase her comfort level with her feelings.  I certainly don't have any expertise in this area, so it is hard for me to fully share our conversation or my interpretation of it.    I think the good news is that we are talking about it.


Wednesday, February 17, 2016

A Special Valentine's Day

We each awoke at the same time on Valentine's Day and Barry gently gave me a kiss and began to use his fingers to stimulate my clitoris and vagina.  He could immediately sense my positive response and rather quickly replaced his hand with his tongue.  Working gently, but deliberately, it didn't take him long to produce a wonderful orgasm on my part.

That put me in the right frame of mind to think in terms of providing Barry with a Valentine's Day treat as well.  Since his last punishment (witnessed by Helen and Carol), he has been the model of a devoted husband.  And, he has not complained once about being locked up in his device.  During those ten or so days, I have not removed it once, even for showering.

I suggested to Barry that he go and start taking a shower, and I would join him in a few minutes.  I could tell by his smile and twinkle in his eye that he knew I has something pleasant in mind.  As he began to shower, I gathered a few toys that I wanted and slipped into his favorite red bustier with matching panty.

When I arrived in the bathroom, Barry took one look and grinned from ear to ear.  He then saw the toys I brought and looked even happier.  I had selected  some shower toys that we have not used for well over a year:  a set of wrist cuffs that have suction cups to mount them to the shower wall; and a realistically sized dildo, also with a suction cup for mounting.  After turning the water off, I generously lubed the dildo and inserted it's head into Barry's anus before having him back up towards the wall so I could fasten the suction cup to the wall.  I then anchored his wrists about shoulder high to the wall using the cuffs.  I then told Barry that I would be back in a few moments, but which time I expected him to work his cute little butt on the dildo so his cheeks were flat against the wall.

I took a few moments to gather some additional items I planned to use before returning to our large walk-in shower.  The first thing I did was remove Barry's cage, which was a bit of a challenge due to the fact that his penis was already attempting to swell.  I then gently massaged, washed, and shaved the shaft of his penis, since it had been a while since he had been able to clean up down there.  I then whispered in his ear that he is not allowed to climax until I have him permission.  I told him that if he did, I would ruin his orgasm.  Using my fingers and hands, and then our sonic toothbrush, I brought him to the edge twice, but didn't give him permission to cum.  The second time he almost lost it.  I then turned my back toward him and allowed him to try to penetrate me from behind, which proved to be another wonderful tease.  After one more edging with my hands, I decided to give him a gift that I know he dearly loves, but has not experienced since his ED issues began.  I dropped to my knees and began to orally please him, slowly at first.  When he was finally begging me to allow him to climax, I granted permission and let him explode.

I was amazed at how easy it was to tease and edge him.  There were definitely no signs of ED issues that Sunday morning!  Which makes me wonder if the masturbation issue was a direct cause of the ED symptoms.  After hugging and kissing, I used the handheld shower to wash him down there and reinstall his cage again before releasing him from the shower wall.

Not surprisingly, Barry has been a very devoted husband who desires to please me again this week.  It feels like time to again introduce more Devotional Sex into our lives as we move forward.


Thursday, February 11, 2016

Barry's Turn - My Punishment Witnessed by Carol and Helen

I really do not enjoy being the center of attention.  If I am honest, I will say that I hate it.  But, I was excited when Susan informed me that Carol and Helen were going to witness my punishment last week.  I don't know how to explain that.  And, even though I was excited, at the same time I was fearful.

Carol has witnessed my spankings in the past.  She has also spanked me.  I am very comfortable with her.  As family, I have always felt there was a bond of trust that nothing would be shared with anyone else without Susan's and my permission.  But Helen is someone I don't really know.  I have met her and had mindless conversations with her at parties.  However, she is not family and I don't know whether there is any sense of confidentiality on her part.  I just didn't know.

So, I entered the evening last week both excited and very nervous. I was much more nervous when I entered the living room after dinner that night. When I saw the brush and Jokari paddle on the coffee table, it took my breath away.  The brush is always hard for me because of its deep penetrating pain.  The Jokari is new to me.  But it looked thick and big. I hate heavy wood paddles.  I also know that Susan knows that. So it made me realize that she was purposely going to scare the heck out of me and probably spank me in an extremely hard way.

Needless to say, my fears and concerns only increased as the evening progressed.  When Susan exposed me and removed my cage in front of Helen, it was extremely embarrassing.  Helen's comments about my cute little bald penis in a cage and panties didn't help.  I didn't know where she was coming from.  Having Susan make me rub my cock with my panties only made things worse.  At that point, I can say that my feeling went from embarrassment to humiliation. That was another indication to me that Susan really planned to punish me that night.  The strange thing is that I felt that I deserved it. So, I was still OK.  The final spanking was really the worst part of the evening.  I don't think Susan has ever spanked me that hard before and the Jokari is a really nasty paddle.  The redness didn't fade completely until three days after the spanking and I felt tenderness in my lower cheeks for almost a week.

One commenter asked if this punishment made a significant impression on me to cause me to stop masturbating.  It certainly did, at least for the present time.  However, I also know that time causes the memory and the pain to fade.  And, I don't think it will matter because Susan has made to very clear to me that I will not be let out of my cage when I am unsupervised anytime in the foreseeable future!  I can't really blame her.  I realize I have a long way to go to earn her trust again.

I'm also OK with that.  I like it when she takes charge of me and I like the fact that we are getting back into practicing some aspects of Devotional Sex again.


Saturday, February 6, 2016

Ending Barry's Punishment and Sorting it Out

When I finished with the Jokari paddle last Wednesday night, I immediately took Barry in my arms, hugged him strongly, and told him how much I love him.  He hugged me back just as strongly and wimpered that he was "so sorry" and that he would never cheat on me again.  I turned to Carol and mouthed my request that she and Helen work on dessert and give us some time.  She immediately understood and took Helen into the kitchen.  That gave Barry and I a few moments to retire to the bedroom for me to comfort him and  help him get redressed in a respectable manner.

When we returned to the living room, Carol and Helen were just beginning to bring our dessert into the living room along with a pot of freshly brewed coffee.  It was a bit awkward as we all sat down.  Carol and Helen were noticeably very silent.  I'm sure they were waiting for me to start things off.  However, before I did so, Barry spoke up.  He started out by apologizing to Carol and Helen for them having to witness what happened.  He went on to tell them that he was very thankful to have a wonderful wife who understood him and was willing to discipline him in a way that would help be a better person.  He then apologized to them for having to witness what just took place.  He shared that it must have been uncomfortable for them, but then joked that they definitely weren't as uncomfortable as he was.  That made us all laugh and it really broke the ice.

That seemed to give Helen the courage to speak up.  She started out by sharing that she had not been completely candid with me.  She then explained that her husband had similar issues and needs as Barry.  However, she was not able to meet them.  She couldn't bring herself to spank him in the way that he desired.  Consequently, she felt their relationship never developed to the full extent that he would have liked.  She was very thankful for me allowing her into the inner sanctum of my relationship with Barry.  She was also very complimentary of Barry openly accepting discipline from me for what was a serious breach of the marriage commitment.  She confessed that there were times when she had to look away as I punished him.  But, she also told Barry that he deserved every bit that I gave him.

Carol then chimed in with gracious comments concerning how much a gift that Barry and I are to each other.  I felt she went a bit overboard with her praise for how much I give to Barry, as well as her praise for Barry being willing to accept his well deserved punishment.

So, despite my initial fears that I had created a situation that might not be good, it all turned out well.


Friday, February 5, 2016

A Very Embarrassing Evening for Barry

I will begin this post by admitting that I was quite hesitant about whether what I was doing was a good thing.  However, the comments provided to my last post convinced me to follow my instincts.  Thank you to everyone for your sharing and giving me confidence and suggestions.

I proceeded with my plans to punish Barry in front of Helen Wednesday night.  And, I also invited my sister, Carol.  Helen has previously met Carol,and Carol has previously observed and participated in spanking Barry, so I thought Carol might add a bit of a comfort level to both Barry and Helen.

Helen and Carol each arrived at the appointed time of 6:00PM. We relaxed in the living room with a class of wine, which I think helped relax each of us.  Carol was probably the most relaxed of all of us, which was very helpful.  It made me glad that I decided to include her.   Barry was the least relaxed, understandably.  He had two glasses of wine and I have never seen him so quiet.  Not surprisingly, no one broached the subject of why we were together.

We eventually moved into the dining room for a simple supper that I had prepared. Conversation still remained somewhat stilted, which made me nervous.  However, we still seemed to manage some good conversation about the current political situation ... what happened in Iowa on Monday, and what will happen in NH next week.  Since Barry and I have lived in NH, Carol and Helen were eager to hear our thoughts.  That also gave Barry a comfortable topic to talk about and he became a bit more engaged. I was very thankful for that.

As we finished our dinner, I suggested that we save dessert for after Barry receives his punishment.  This was the first time our reason for being together was mentioned.  And, it seemed to provide some relief to Helen to hear it vocalized.  I wasn't sure whether to delay dessert or not, but my gut told me that we needed to have something to bring us all together after the main event.  It turned out to be a good decision.

I asked Barry to clear the table, while I prepared the living room.  Helen followed Carol's lead in helping him.  While they were cleaning up, I took a dining room chair into the living room and placed it in the middle of the room facing the sofa.  Our coffee table was the only thing separating the chair and the sofa.  I then placed the implements that I planned to use on Barry's bottom (besides my hand) on the coffee table.

Returning to the kitchen, I asked Helen and Carol if they would like another glass of wine.  Carol took me up on it.  Looking quite nervous, Helen declined.  After Carol poured herself a glass of wine, I suggested that we all retire to the living room.  Carol and Helen seated themselves on the sofa and I sat on the dining room chair.  Barry wasn't quite sure what to do, so I called him over to stand by my right side facing the sofa.  I could see Barry and Helen nervously looking at the implements on the coffee table.

I then thanked Helen and Carol for being here to witness Barry's punishment and explained that Barry and I each agree that it is important for him to experience the embarrassment of being punished in front of someone.  I then instructed Barry to remove his shirt, shoes,and socks.  After he did so, I then made him turn to his left to face me and I unbuckled his belt and lowered his trousers.  I then instructed him to step out of them, fold them neatly, and place them on a nearby chair along with his other removed clothing.

When Barry finished, wearing only a pair of sheer white nylon panties through which it was clearly visible that he was shaved and wearing a chastity device, it was very evident that he was nervous and embarrassed.  I decided to add to his level of embarrassment by stating something like "Doesn't he look cute in these wonderful panties and his chastity device?"  I don't think Helen knew what to say, but Carol immediately commented about how perfectly submissive and cute he looked.  Looking up at Barry, I could see a blush appear in his cheeks.

I then lowered Barry's panties to mid thigh and asked him if he would like me to remove his device before he is spanked.  This caught him by surprise.  I had never done that before.  He eventually stammered that "Yes, that might be nice".  This let me make his penis the center of attraction as I removed the cage.  After slowly removing the cage and gently touching his penis while I explained to Helen how useful I have found this chastity device, Barry began to get an erection.

I was a bit surprised by this.  I began to apologize to Helen for putting her in an uncomfortable position of seeing my husband become sexually aroused.  Much to my surprise, she quickly replied with something like "Oh, don't be concerned Susan.  I have seen my share of 'willies' in my life, especially when I was younger.  However, I will admit that this is the first time that I have seen a cute little bald one that was locked up in a plastic box and wearing panties!.  I must also admit that I wish I knew about these things when my husband was alive."

I couldn't help but smile at her genuine response.  I eventually looked at Barry and he was crimson.  I was then taken completely by surprise with Carol's response. She quickly stated "I can take care of that" ... and she got up from the couch and used her first finger triggered by her thumb to thump against the underside of the shaft of Barry's penis.  She quickly repeated that action two more times.  To my surprise, his penis immediately began to wilt.  I guess I looked at her in surprise, so she quickly apologized and share that this was a technique that she had learned years ago in nursing school.

Barry now stood by my side, completely naked except for his panties that were lowered to mid thigh.  He started to place his hands in front of his penis, but I stopped him and directed him to explain to Helen and Carol why he was being punished.  He began to stammer and said that he thought they already knew.  I calmly explained that they have heard the reasons from me, but that it is important to me that he personally share with them what he has done wrong.  I added, "I want you to personally admit to them what you have been doing without my knowledge."

Barry then proceeded to stammer and slowly explain that during the past few months he had become obsessed with watching spanking porn on his computer and had been jerking off (his term).  I prompted him to go further by asking what was the result of this type of activity (which is something that Barry and I have discussed the past few days).  He became very obviously more embarrassed and became very quiet.  When I told him that I was waiting for his answer, he quietly shared that he developed some erectile dysfunction.  I then took on the role of a prosecuting attorney and asked him if a better characterization of his condition might be that he became impotent.  After a long pause, he whispered "yes".

I was watching Carol at this time, because this was something I had not even shared with her.  I could see the look of surprise and shock on her face.  And, when I looked at Barry, he was crimson faced.  I then thanked Barry for his honesty and asked him to explain what else he had done to deserve his punishment.

Barry slowly shared how he had visited a professional disciplinarian last fall to be spanked.  Again, my prosecuting attorney personality kicked in and I forced him to explain how many times he had done so; and to acknowledge that he did this without even telling me that he needed to be spanked or asking me to do so.  I also pushed him to admit that he agreed with me that his actions were equivalent to cheating on me.

I then explained to Helen and Carol (primarily for Helen's benefit) that I had already punished Barry last week for these actions, but that I felt it important to make sure he learns a lesson.  I also explained that a very important part of this punishment is to make Barry admit what he did to someone else besides me and to have this punishment witnessed by both of them.

I then asked Barry to pull up his panties and get over my lap.  I could tell that he was surprised at being allowed to keep his panties on.  For the benefit of Helen and Carol, I explained that I don't normally spank Barry with his panties on when the spanking is a punishment.  However, tonight I was going to start out easier than usual; and that I wanted them to see how cute his shaved bottom looks in nylon.  As he was pulling up his panties, I hiked up my skirt so that Barry would be lying over my stocking covered legs.

Once he was over my lap I began spanking and scolding him, as well as periodically pausing to rub his bottom and comment about how cute he looked.  I gradually spanked him quite hard with my hand and his bottom was becoming a nice pink color.  However, I could tell by the feel of his penis against my thigh that he was enjoying it.  Having him lie directly on my stockings was having the effect I desired.  When I allowed him to stand up, it was obvious that he was quite aroused.

I took this opportunity to embarrass him further.  Pulling down his panties, I made him step out of them and I then hung them on his erection.  I commented, "Since you are getting spanked for masturbating, why don't you show Helen and Carol how you like to stroke your penis with nylon panties when you masturbate?".  "No, please don't make me do that", he begged.  When I just stared at him, he took the panties and began to massage his penis.  After two or three minutes, I allowed him to stop.

After first making him hand me the wooden hairbrush that was on the coffee table, I positioned him over my lap with his legs spread open and his penis drawn back between his legs so that it was clearly visible and accessible to me.  I knew that this would further embarrass him in front of the ladies, plus I wanted to keep an eye on his level of arousal.  I expected to to go down very shortly, and it did.  It didn't take many swats with the hairbrush to have him squirming and begging me to stop.  I started out using it very methodically, working my way around his entire bottom and sit spot.  Near the end I just alternated from cheek to cheek while minimizing the time between swats.  Of course, I was scolding him about his masturbation problem the entire time and making him promise to never masturbate without my permission.  When I was finally done I allowed him to stand and rub his bottom for a moment while standing facing Helen and Carol.

When I was ready to continue I told Barry that the next stage of his punishment would address his cheating on me by visiting the disciplinarian.  After having him provide me with the Jokari paddle on the coffee table,  He looked at me with fear in his eyes.  He had never seen this paddle and he is very fearful of heavy wood.  I looked back at him with a look that said "deal with it cheater".  I then took him back over my lap.  This time I required him to lie over my left leg so that I could use my right leg to clamp him in place.  Once I had him in place, I suggested to him that he hang onto the chair rungs and be prepared for some pain.

I then went to work with the Jokari.. While scolding Barry, I started out by spanking his right cheek, then his left cheek, and finally right across the middle of his bottom.  I repeated this pattern about twenty times.  I then suggested that he hang on tight while I finished things up.  That meant multiple, rapid alternating swats with the Jokari between both of his cheeks.  It didn't take long to have Barry begging me to stop.

When I finally stopped, Barry was sobbing.

This post has become much too long.  I apologize.  Barry suggested that we need to add some photos to break it up.  So, I directed him to find some.  He found a couple.  I have also decided that I need to go ahead and post what I have.  My next post will talk about how the four of us dealt with what had happened.

We continue to grow,

Tuesday, February 2, 2016

Barry's Desire to be Embarrassed

In his recent post, Barry shared his desire (he would say 'need') to be embarrassed or humiliated in front of another woman by being exposed when he is disciplined.  For quite some time I have been aware of his need to be spanked and his very strong submissiveness.  However, until this week, I didn't realize how strong a feeling the embarrassment issue was for him.  I've been giving it considerable thought, especially with respect to trying to understand why the feelings are so strong and how we might provide this type of experience in a way that is comfortable for me.  Of course, Barry has been spanked in front of my sister in the past; and even been spanked by her.  However, that doesn't seem to completely fulfill his desire.

I didn't overtly plan for it to happen this soon, but events yesterday created a situation where it will likely happen tomorrow evening.  I was having lunch with a lovely lady who lives nearby.  She is about my age (probably a little younger) and we have gotten to know each other quite well.  She is a widow, having lost her husband a little over a year ago to a sudden, unexpected, massive heart attack.  During our lunch yesterday, she asked how things were going with Barry and me.  I don't know whether it was because of the way she asked the question, but for some reason I let my guard down and replied in a way that I have never done with anyone other than my sister.  I commented that we are doing well, but that I have had to return to disciplining him lately.  She immediately picked up on that and started asking more questions in a very kind and gentle way.  It felt very comfortable, so I ended up sharing a lot about our FLR and spanking relationship with her.  I was surprised that nothing I said appeared to shock her and she was extremely intrigued by everything I shared.  At one point, she shared that she wished that she and her husband had enjoyed such a relationship.

The end result was that I shared with her Barry's desire to have a witness to his spanking.  I also asked her how she would feel about observing a spanking session and creating an embarrassing situation for him.  To my surprise, she was very interested and actually seemed quite excited about such opportunity.  So, Helen has been invited to dinner tomorrow night and I plan to administer another punishment spanking to Barry for his recent activities.  I also plan to require Barry to explain to Helen why he is being punished while he is naked and ready to go over my lap.

Barry doesn't know about this yet, and I will admit that I'm a little anxious about what I have set into motion.  During dinner tonight I will share with him that he will be punished again tomorrow night and that Helen will be present to witness it.  I'm sure I'll have a better idea at that point of whether it is a mistake.  If I feel it is, I can always call it off or postpone it.