Tuesday, October 25, 2011

My Absence

Based on the various emails and comments to blog posts that I have received, and my inability to answer them in a timely manner, I have come to the realization that I need explain why I have not been actively blogging much lately, or responding to emails in a timely manner.  I'm not comfortable offering significant detail, but Barry and I are in the midst of trying to support and lovingly care for an aging parent.  It takes all of our energy at this point.  So, please bear with us.  And, please provide your prayers and loving thoughts based upon your own traditions.  We will greatly appreciate them.


Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Success and Frustration

Last night was a special evening for me. I have been reading about techniques to 'milk' Barry by massaging his prostate gland for a long time.  I have really wanted to make this happen, but I have unsuccessfully tried several times.  But, last night it worked.

When I began, Barry was very arroused, as he always is these days.  Since it has been over two weeks since his last orgasm, I decided to try again.  I had him kneeling on the bed and I used two fingers this time to massage his prostate.  This time I held his penis with my left hand while I used the index and middle finger of my right hand to very firmly massage the prostate.  Initially, I saw a lot of clear fluid beginning to drip, but that was not unusual these days.  After about 10 minutes I could tell by his verbal utterings that I was having a different affect on him.  He eventually began to make some sounds I hadn't heard before.  At that point I began to see a drop of semen emerge, so I began to massage more firmly.  As I continued, a slow stream of semen emerged and his verbal response took on a different tone.  It was almost primal in nature as semen flowed from his penis.  I kept massaging until no more semen emerged.  However, his penis was still very erect at that point.

We slowly took some time to digest what had happened and talked about it.  Barry had a tough time sharing.  However, he eventually verbalized that he had a hard time understanding what was happening. In his words, he felt something flowing through his penis, but had no control over it.  He said it felt really weird, compared to when he urinated, which he could control.  He and I also realized that after it happened, he was still sexually arroused, which he found to be totally frustrating.

I'm not sure where we will go with this.  I loved achieving this milking.  However, I didn't know how to deal with Barry still being sexually arroused at the end.  I left him completely frustrated (which is not a bad thing in my mind).  However, I think I need to handle this differently in the future.


Sunday, October 16, 2011

The Journey Continues

The past few weeks have continued to be a learning time for both Barry and me as I have continued to keep him in chastity.  He has only had two orgasms since we began this stage of our journey in the beginning of September.  I apologize for not sharing more with you as we have progressed.  However, I found it hard to share as we went along, since we each were truly trying to find the right way for our relationship and each of our needs.  It has not been easy and we have made changes as we went along.  But, we are now getting into a good rhythm and it seems to be working.  Some of the changes we have made include changing Barry's device.  We have reverted back to the 6000s that we initially purchased, but had put aside because Barry could slip out of it quite easily.  However, I suddenly realized that since Barry has lost significant weight, his penis protrudes more prominently from his lower abdomen even when he is flacid and the 6000s is now more secure.  Barry finds it much more comfortable, and I must confess that I love the way it looks under his panties!  So, it was a good change for both of us.  I also allow Barry to be out of it on more occasions, when I can adequately supervise him.  We have started removing it on Saturday mornings while we are around the house, but he wears only panties during that time.  It gives me a fun time to tease and arrouse him, but now allow him to orgasm.  It definitely doesn't take much to cause an erection during that time :-).

Another change has been to allow more frequent orgasms than the first stretch of chastity he endured (4 weeks).  That definitely got his attention and made him realize that I was serious about controlling this part of his life.  But, now, I enjoy orchestrating some pleasure for him a bit more frequently.  Even though I will allow more frequent orgasms, they are now completely on my terms.  I either provide the stimulation or require Barry to do so under my supervision.  His second orgasm was a very quick affair because I allowed him 3 minutes to play with himself while I watched.  I made it clear that when the three minutes were up he would be required to stop all stimulation and go back in his device.  He managed to orgasm, but with little time to spare.

As we move forward, I will try to share more of this phase of our journey.  I have ordered a couple of new toys that should provide some fun for us.  I am anxious for them to arrive and will share more when they do.