Barry and I have been having a very good week. He is working late this evening, so I thought I would take a few minutes to share an update and some of my thoughts.
Barry seems to be letting go of much of his anger with respect to Joan (for which I am very thankful). The birthday weekend brought out a number of dynamics between the two of them that he had never shared with me. However, after a number of long discussions between the two of us, I think he is coming to terms with them. I must confess that I feel like I had a very boring childhood (for which I am very thankful). However, even though he is coming to terms with it, I am going to be careful about when when meet again with Joan and what happens at that meeting.
For the immediate future, I'm feeling a need to strengthen what happens between Barry and me. I want him to feel safe with me (without the presence of Joan), and I also want to make sure I maintain control. If I could get to that point of a discussion with him, I suspect that he would share those goals, since I have seen that he loves me to maintain control. However, there I feel that there are still some aspects of his relationship with Joan that he has not shared. Consequently, I feel like I am still flying blindly to some degree. I really wish he could verbalize more with me.
I'm planning to make tomorrow night a fun night for the two of us. But, I also want to make sure I maintain control. So, I'm thinking about providing a night of teasing and providing him with a very rewarding orgasm, along with expanding my control. Friday night is our customary night to make sure he maintains shaving from his waist to mid-thigh. It has become customary for him to shave what he can see and for me to handle more intimate areas. We both have grown to love the latter. It has become fun for both of us in our large walk-in shower and it provides me with a great opportunity to provide a tease and denial situation.
Since we are now into colder weather in the Northeast when Barry always wears long-sleeve shirts and long pants, I would love to shave him completely. That would feel very sexy to me and it would also allow me to maintain and expand control. Given the weather, it would also assure that no one else would know about what we are doing.
I have to also confess that I am still waiting to use the RealDoe that arrived a week ago. After last weekend, I want to be careful about how and when I bring that out. I suspect it may not happen for a while. I am also aware that after this weekend, our opportunity to "play " will be reduced for a while, since we have two children coming home for the holidays.