Susan has suggested (directed) that I personally share my thoughts about what happened Sunday evening rather than having her to share them for me. As I have previously shared, this is not a very easy thing for me to do, but I will do my best.
I guess I should begin with my thoughts about being pegged. It is difficult for me to explain why I am so drawn by this activity. I guess it is because it makes me feel completely vulnerable and submissive to Susan. After all, I don't think I could feel anymore exposed and vulnerable than when my butt is in the air and Susan is sliding her dildo into it. That coupled with the sexual arousal I feel while being penetrated puts me at a very special "place".
So, pegging is something that really turns me on, which is why I have asked Susan to do it. And it is why I agreed to have her sister and friend witness the event. It was the only way she would do this to me. I had serious doubts about whether it would be a good decision before Sunday. However, after the evening ended, I was very glad that I took the chance.
Having Carol and Helen spank me before the pegging was extremely helpful. I love to be spanked and that felt like a very safe way to get them involved in the evening. I also loved the way they teased me while spanking me at a very comfortable level.
The only time I felt any concern that night was when Carol stood up and revealed that she had a strapon under her dress. My immediate fear was that Susan would let Carol peg me what was obviously a much bigger dildo than I had ever taken. However, my fears were reduced when I realized that I would hopefully only be required to suck on it. That actually excited me. Once I started, the complete submissiveness of having Susan penetrating my ass while I was sucking Carol's strapon put me in complete subspace. I suspect that is why I ended up grabbing Carol's ass so forcefully (I don't really remember doing it).
I was also in a very wonderful place during the final portion of the evening, when I had a strapon in each end while Susan brought me to a forceful climax. I also don't really remember (although Susan has assured me that it happened) licking my juice off Carol's strapon.
I'm not sure if this helps explain why I feel the way I do. However, I hope it conveys what a wonderful experience I enjoyed Sunday evening. I fully realize that I am an extremely lucky man to have Susan as my wonderful. Our relationship is something that I could never have dreamed of four or five years ago. She is a gift to me and I love her deeply ... such that I will do anything for her.